Sunday, October 28, 2007

Chasing Cars


Something extraordinary happened last week on the way to Queens Bay Mall during lunch. It was a last minute plan to find a special gift for a dear friend. Just after I drove out of the office car park, Baby’s car was in front of me at the main junction. I purposely drove very close behind her and flashed a few times to get her attention. As expected, she speed off, switched lanes and swerved in between cars to leave me behind. I laughed at what just happened as we enjoyed teasing each other in a fun way. I tried to catch up with her. At the 1st traffic light, I could still see part of her car although there were a few cars ahead. By the time I reached 2nd traffic light, she was totally out of my sight. I could imagine her cheeky smile when I finally lost her. Just seconds after that, I noticed a familiar car. Not sure if it belongs to a dear friend, the one I’m buying a gift. Thinking that it wasn’t her, my mind started to wander about the gift.

Once the traffic light turned green, I decided to catch up with that car. Just before the forked junction, the car speed off and I couldn’t determine if it went straight ahead or turn left, the way that I was heading. I felt disappointed for the 2nd time that day. Just when I was about to give up, unexpectedly at the 3rd traffic light, the car I was chasing earlier was exactly on my left side. Out of curiosity, I drove close enough to see the driver. To my surprise, it was really her, my dear friend whom I was chasing after Baby left me earlier. It was the 1st time we met driving on the road. I briefly acknowledged her and continued thinking of her perfect gift.

At the 4th traffic light, her car was exactly behind mine. At that point of time, I knew that we were heading to Queens Bay, which used to be our ‘sacred place’ for Friday lunch. The rest of the way there, all I could think was it would be the last time we’ll be driving together. Though we were heading the same way, we went separate ways once we reached the mall. She knew exactly where she was heading while I was still struggling to find her perfect gift. I promised to myself that it would be the first beautiful thing that catch my eyes … just like the way she caught mine.

There's something about the 'chase' that lingers in my mind until today. I was actually more disappointed when I couldn't catch up with my dear friend instead of Baby. It's more disappointing to lose someone I'd like to get close to than the one I've been chasing after. The closest reflection that I could relate this incident is quoted from The Little Prince, "But the eyes are blind. One must look with the heart...". What I do know for sure is that even though the 'catch' lasted only for a moment, the 'triumph' feels like it lasts forever.

" Mirror ... Mirror in my hand, tell me where do I stand ... "

XOXO

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
We'll do it all, everything, on our own
We don't need anything or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world

I don't quite know how to say how I feel
Those three words are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace to remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
I just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lay with me
And just forget the world

No comments: