Monday, May 2, 2011

Beautiful Liar

Dear “Z.J.” aka R.I. aka I.Z. aka Luvly Butterfly or WHATEVER you call yourself these days …

It was all good when we first started to know through Friendster since Aug 2008. I thought you genuinely wanted to be my friend. Then you asked me to create Hi-5 account so that it would only be just us sharing stuff. After awhile you invited me in tagged and that was when I started seeing others flirting with you. After I confronted, you denied of anything serious as it was all just for fun. You removed me when I persistently asked why you kept responding to their flirts. At the same time, I also saw similar comments from others in FB but I decided to ignore them to give you the benefit of the doubt. Maybe I was being too protective like you said. Seeing you having few social accounts with different list of friends made me wonder if you were flirting with them at the same time.

Well I don't have to wonder anymore as I've uncovered your web of lies. After your occasional fling on tagged, I wanted to proof my instincts were right. So what did I do? I created a fake tagged account and added your friends, only the usual suspects. Since you removed me from tagged, I also created another fake account and added you to see all your responses to them. Your comments proved something but your photos with them told me everything I needed to know. As for facebook, I don’t need to create fake account as most of your friends account profile are public view. All I had to do was to browse through each one of them. Similarly, the comments and especially the photos not only speak a thousand words but they actually prove all my instincts were correct. I even saw a photo of you taken on the same day as your flight to Penang. In that photo you were wearing the same top with a mini-skirt which you changed to jeans when I picked you at the airport. It was also during that trip I noticed you had another handphone secretly kept in your handbag. I was amazed at how you could keep up with your lies. Such a HYPOCRITE!! Another FB mate of yours once left slightly “detail” comment about the two of you in her post. I was totally shocked because the post was just days after you said went visiting some relative in JB and the area has very weak reception. Poor reception MY ASS!! You did not visit any relative, you were with her. You purposely switched off your handphone to avoid any unexpected call from me. That was the final straw. I decided to confront your JB mate through facebook message. I asked about your relationship with her which she kept denied. She even asked about us which shows that she had no idea that we were together. You fooled both of us at the same time. I decided to keep it cool and pretended I knew nothing about your affair. I was hoping she would confront you so that I could end us right that moment. But that did not happen as she don't even care that you played her as well. I think both of you really suits each other!! So I let it be and kept playing your game secretly.

Now it’s been almost a month since your last sms. Initially I understand the silence as you needed time and space to settle down. Then I realized not only you were busy with your new job but you also started a new life with someone else. I should have suspected something wrong when I haven’t heard anything while you were "on holiday" in KL. I should have known your games. Your early April sms certainly made me a fool but I no longer wish to become one with all your lame excuses & lies. I seriously doubt your love for me was even real anymore. You’re not my Luvly Butterfly, “BEAUTIFUL LIAR” suits you better.

I forgave you when you had a fling with your tagged friends because you convinced me they were just harmless flirts. I even forgave you when you had a brief affair with JB-mate Iman because it was not serious and meant nothing. BULL-SHIT!! Your latest fling with Abi in KL left me totally speechless as I had no idea when it actually started. Once bitten, twice shy. Three times made me look like a BLOODY FOOLl!! I stayed on with you thinking that you would eventually changed. Never thought you’re such a heartless BITCH who would left me hanging after you secretly found someone better.

I can’t believe you treated me this way after I’ve trusted you with all my heart. Never once I betrayed you. I've stayed true to you all the while. Now, I've no intention whatsoever to keep any of the memories we had. I feel nothing for you, don't want to think of you and do not wish to hear from you. I don’t even care if I never ever see you again ... I simply don’t give a damn about you anymore!! We’re finally OVER.

All the gifts - clothes, shoes, handbags, jewelleries & not to forget the handphone that "accidentally" sms me when it was meant for someone else you also called “Sayang”. DAMN IT!! You can do whatever you want with those useless things. Stuff them in your ASS if they fit. Otherwise, just burn or crush them to pieces just like you did with my aching heart. You can take back your COLD-BLOODED heart. Don’t worry about the money you owed me, treat them as a final gift for your upcoming birthday. Such an expensive birthday gift to pay for someone who deserves nothing at all. You played with so many hearts & you won all of them. You may be a player in this game of love but one day you will eventually lose everything. And one last thing, go FUCK YOURSELF!!

Kris Dayanti says "I’m Sorry Goodbye" but I would rather say my own way - I’m NOT SORRY at all … GOODBYE!